An early graduation present!

December 19, 2010

So in the midst of all the craziness of our lives… my husband was invited to San Francisco to give a talk. I was so worried it would interfere with my graduation… but everyone was accommodating. Thank you!

You see the last time I “walked” for one of my degrees was 1976!

I now have a BS, MS, MA and EdS and it is for this degree that I was willing to participate in a public ritual – not of my design!

And it was wonderful! Both the trip before and the experience of being hooded for this accomplishment.

Feeling so very grateful as we wax towards the winter solstice!



December 18, 2010

Have I told you lately that I am content!?!?!?!? Ecstatic even????

Oh my goodness what a ride this last nearly four years has been… and now after having been caught in the undertow, the spin cycle, and the roller coaster – I am being catapulted out the other side…and I am here to tell you with absolute certainty and joy that it was worth every moment of suffering and difficulty and ecstasy and joy!


Have I mentioned lately how ab*soul*utley enchanted I am?

Well… I am!



December 11, 2010

Tomorrow is the third Sunday of Advent and I should be packing for a trip that I am taking, but instead I am sitting still, very still and contemplating and watching, and looking out the window and drinking tea. There is a stillness inside me that is bottomless.

Several times over the past months, someone has said that sitting with me is very calming. I have noticed that my immediate internal reaction to that is that I am a whirling dervish of energy, excitement, movement, study, intensity, curiosity… I am movement.

And yet I am also stillness. Within me is a stillness and it is without measure.





The Holy Days are upon us…

November 27, 2010

and I have been insanely content! Everything seems to be unfolding effortlessly without much effort on my part… without me needing to control and contrive and consult and confound. Effortlessly…. without effort.

The last time I felt this way was April, 2007. Not that there haven’t been times of contentment in the intervening years, but it has been a journey through the towers of ivory and hasn’t always been obvious what the lessons are and which teachers to let in and which teachers to discern out.

And now, advent is coming and in the midst of the holy days, I am going to don my purple robe and claim my hood of humility.

I am over the moon happy!

And you? Where are you in the life cycle as the days lengthen here in the northern hemisphere?


Equanimity and Equinoxes

September 28, 2010

What a wonderful few months it has been. Each day I greet the sun as she rises over the ridge that is blue and then in the evening, I chase the sun as she sets in the distant mountains. Some mornings the moon is with me reminding me of the night and some evenings the moon follows me safely home. All of this is the up side of my new position.


8000 miles on the car in four months…

and in December I graduate… no degree, no higher learning experience has ever meant as much as this means to me.

I am so very, very, very, grateful… filled up with gratitude.

Midlife ROCKS!

And you- how is the Middle Passage treating you?


New book forthcoming – Warming the Stone Child

June 16, 2010

Forthcoming from SoundsTrue…

I have written something over 400 posts over the last five years – not a prolific blogger by any means – but I have blogged in spurts of energy and focused energy and intention. Sometimes, I check my blog stats to see what people are reading, or how they found me, or what they click on and it is fascinating to me that “Warming the Stone Child” is almost always in the all time top five search strings for this little blog.

I know that a lot of therapists and women’s groups use the audio files. That’s how I found my way to the warm and inspiring stories. I find that the work has aged well and holds up and has led me to look for other teaching stories that are a balm to the heart of the unmothered child within many of us.

And now… how many times have you looked for new work from Dr. Clarissa Pinkola Estes and read the words forthcoming…? for me? LOTS! But something is shifting…

Our cantadora has come out of her long respite and is sharing new work in the world. It began with some interviews scattered about the internet about her forthcoming work. Then some interviews with SoundsTrue. Mother Night burst on the scene and was followed by the Dangerous Old Woman. All of these are in audio format. I love audio format because I love her storytelling voice… but sometimes, I want a book…

I want to curl up with paper and pencil and a BOOK and I want to write in the margins and cover the pages with notes. I want to put that book aside and come back and reread it over and over, astounded by the notes that I took over time. And soon… well maybe soon is relative… CPE is going to release a flesh and blood ink and paper version of Warming the Stone Child – as a BOOK!

Tami Simon at soundstrue mentioned it during one of the sessions of the Dangerous Old Woman – but I don’t remember which one and haven’t heard it again as I listened through… but I know I heard it… for reallies I did! Somehow I thought it was spring – maybe spring 2012? Anyone else here that as they were listening?


Eleven Practices – Draw It

June 14, 2010

Dr. Pinkola Estes says:

The contents of one’s unconscious is a language, and by doing creative work, that is work that originates with ourselves, with our original ideas, original voice, original movements, original learning, giving, et al, we make so many useful and helpful and beautiful things visible.

During periods of time in my life when I haven’t been able to make sense of things on a thinking or verbal level, I draw mandalas.  A few years ago I was introduced to the work of Dr. Judith Cornell – and began to create illuminated mandalas. When I look back through the series – I never stop being surprised by the wisdom of the unconscious – how my Self knows long before my I/everyday/ego/self what transformations are lurking on the horizon.

I continue to pay attention to my “one thing” and it continues to pay attention to me.