And of course … whole-other forms of humility and enchantment are waiting to fill the void. To me, moments of uncertainty and missing what-was are a good indication of how much heart & soul you truly gave to the endeavor.

P.S. I found myself getting pissed-off that somebody asked if you were running away. I projected a presumed and yet entirely false “knowing” that was an open and shut door whose hinges creak with inherent audacity as well as mis-perception. Quickly realized that was something that HAS been so in my own case. For a long time I just didn’t think about it much -relegating the matter to being somebody else’s trip rather than my own. But it HURT, actually, to realize I was so poorly seen – through some inaccurate scrim of “knowing” that can get very dicey within a collective sphere that revolves around sacred female awareness and, thus, some measure of intuition. I have felt that many examples of women’s “wisdom” (as it tends to be practiced/shared at the vernacular, everyday level) is all too frequently [at least partially] misdirected as well as presumptious and unapologetic in its quadrant of error.

Having now realized all of this was something WITHIN me waiting to be properly healed (as opposed to a cynical and maybe overly pointed observation…) I’m free to go to work on the aspects of such a matter that are held in my memory and cellular structure that DID pertain me. Had imagined I had all that settled but the way this sentence from your post pushed an internalized button helps me understand that perhaps I simply set it aside to grow stronger in my own self-awareness rather than *CONSCIOUSLY* holding the vestige of somebody else’s projection.

So see? You’re still helping strong courageous women (at least this one) face themselves a bit more clearly and patiently. Nice job ;)